I remained in forward motion throughout the year. If I wasn’t writing, I was researching, trying to figure out how to use social media, planning shoots, emailing and so on. I knew I wouldn’t reach my goal of 365 blog posts by early Fall, the toll of spending my entire day blogging had begun to affect my marriage, my friendships, my personality, and lifestyle – all work and no play makes Holly a bit of a stress bag of impatience – so I consciously attempted to re-embrace my laissez-faire attitude, pumping the breaks on the impassioned drive I had manifested.
My friend Maï called it a mental marathon – and it was. I was drained of all creativity, but in exchange, I received and shared an education, which amongst all the blessings bestowed, was the main goal I set out for.
This was my first major push into being the change I want to see in the world, not just in the everyday sense of practising kindness and murmuring namaste to my neighbours, but in actually attempting to embody and practice meaningful changes, which would ripple beyond me, mine and my peers. I knew that awareness is the first step in personal progression of any kind, and I wanted to become more conscious of the wrongs that I accidentally and sometimes indirectly cause to the planet and her inhabitants, to prove to myself – and others – that simple sustainable switches with habits or products can be adopted without much disruption to the daily rhythms of life.
“All life needs time below the surface, where it can breathe itself full and round, where it can reconnect with its nature and sprout again in its flushed form. Just as you can not force flowers to continually bloom, the same is true for all human beings. There is great value in letting go and dropping down. We must learn to remember, from time to time, to be like the tree in the winter.” –Sarah Blondin